as i OWE everything to You

my most powerful armor in times of need, in the middle of struggles and difficulties, as i kept my FAITH and keeping myself STAND STRONG, even though on the hopeless days I STILL BELIEVE I CAN :)

in these such times, as things seems left me and feeling of so much loneliness, that i feel so down and no one to rescue me, these things had been my instrument in communicating to you Lord God, having these pieces given by the people who loved me and adore me, that now, as i have this, i have and feel You, i also feel their love and care to me by means of this meaningful gifts from them. and i would like to acknowledge and say thank you with all my heart to these persons, now that i feel, i am not alone in these battles i have been through, being my most helpful tool specially at this peak of my stormy days

*The Divine Mercy chaplet and rosary from my Atchi Irma :) as i feel her love for me, not just for being a friend, a sister, but being also a 2nd mom to me :)

*the Rosary Ring, and those beads are my birthstones came from a friend and a sister Maharot Claire :) its her present for me Christmas 2011

*St. Claire of Asisi Prayer Booklet from a former client, Mam Teena :) this was her gift as a remembrance during my last days at work, and for showing me how she appreciates me, as a whole, even though we haven't met personally :)

*White Crystals Rosary from my former head at work Boss Wilson :) this was my Christmas gift from him last Christmas 2011. he'd been so memorable to me, i've learned a lot from him, being my ideal leader, mentor, great advices, as he sees and respect and value my knowledge my talent, my skills, and everything on me. and also became my 2nd father

*Black Nazarene Necklace, i had in Quiapo Church when im attending mass every first friday of the month, and this has been special courtesy of my beloved honey, this was blessed when we both attend the first friday mass 2013. my honey, my love, the half of my heart, the half of my life, my partner in everything, my forever, the man i was dreaming to be with me for the rest of my life. you are not with me right now, but i do believe someday, we will have the perfect timing for us to be together, i am wishing us for we, two be strong, although we're apart now, as everyday i miss you a lot

Lord God, i want you to know, that im still here, in the middle of the hardest part of my battle, i am still brave, i am still strong and fighting, because i know, even though everything will be gone in me, i will still have you, in my soul, spirit, my heart, my eternity. those shed of tears that speaks on what my heart felt that can't interpret by my mouth, i am hopeless, but i am still hoping, never losing patience, courage to move forward, and see the next episodes, everyday is always the best days, i believe everything will be better on the next few days :) thankyou Lord God for the blessing, that i am still here, standing strong and fighting. pls guide me, hold my hand, i trust everything on You, i owe everything on You, as i find its purpose. I LIFT EVERYTHING ON YOU LORD GOD. AMEN :)

Keeping on FAITH

Lord God,

in amidst of my struggles and hopelessness at this point in time, full of feeling of loneliness, left behind with no one to lean on, i still do believe I HAVE YOU, as You always showed me no matter how hard life is, it is still wonderful just like how amazing You are to give us these such a not-so-perfect existence, giving us the world to live, chances to experience different success and difficulties that will enable to strengthen us and be mature and brave in facing another endeavors comes along our way, as we are more knowledgeable and prepared in handling such situation we might encounter. we, anyone of us in this world didn't know what the world awaits us, that's one thing that makes life so awesome, because of its full of surprises. everything we experienced, although the hardest was THE ASTONISHING GIFTS FROM YOU. i wont deny sometimes in the most difficult times of my life, as i feel devastated, many questions as i ask, "do i deserve this? why do i have to experience these such? why me?", i shed tears, tears that expresses what my heart felt that can't interpret by my mouth.

in the past days, months, that i felt nonfunctional, restless, depress, stress from head to toe, lose the biggest battle, felt misunderstood, no one else left, i always lift up myself, by doing it ALONE, all by myself. it started on the day that the primary persons in my life was almost destroy, ruined by the unexpected deeds done that was really causes each one of us hurt, feel the hardest pain, that after a long years run that we make our lives better and live simply, intact and happy, in just one glimpse, it ruined everything. but still, we chose to be together, forgive, giving each other's a chance to make things right, and stand strong in facing of those people who want to make us see broke and miserable. As we start all over, it came to the point that we have to give up the stable things that we have that we've worked out for a long long time, in order for us to start a brand new beginning, as we aim to be happy and be stronger this time around. making those decisions had been so hard for me to accept, giving up a lot of things, a feeling of "starting to scratch" without nothing, breaks my heart leaving a life i used to love and be in forever. it causes me a lot of depressions, sadness, devastation, but i have to be in it for another wonderful beginning with the people whom i was to treasure in my whole entire life, in short those hard sacrifices makes it hard for me to accept. days and days, as we step-by-step doing remedies, comes a findings causes to test my patience, that in a short while made it solved. as things seems doing a good run, i was totally been in a FULL DAMAGED OF HEARTBREAK, unexpected, worst nightmare, uncontrollable, the hardest peak i can't even handle on. acceptance, forgiveness had been so hard, so hard for me to start all over again on that tragedy, tragedy who cause is the person that i didn't expect will do this to me, the only person i expect that wont leave me, when the world step back at me, the person i didn't expect will fail me. on that day on, I FEEL SO ALONE. no one else left. as also the dreams that i have in my hand WAS GONE, added by another situation which makes me feel so weak, as i had my illness that i have to deal for a mean time.

its hard for me to start, but i have to help myself, lift up, as i know a brighter tomorrow awaits. i always keep a positive thoughts in me. never let every single moment ruin me in conquering these such things that i was about to be been through, for my own benefits, making myself a better, preparation on stepping in another journey as i finish this tough road that i have to cross. leading the path and make me see the brightest sunshine at the end of the dark tunnel. making myself happy in the times being happy is unknown. and trusting You and leave everything in Your hands, as i always believe that these are all your plans for me, that this is just the twist and turns, slowly re-gaining liveliness, bring back the life i used to, the life that i will deserved, the life that i will be happy and contented. no what if's, no worries, simply, calm and free.

now, i am still OFFICIALLY NOT YET DONE in these, still be needing to fix some hitch remains. sacrificing to lose someone for the benefit of the persons i should be focused on. let go of my personal desires in making every basic things in life put on the right track. prioritize the persons who needed me the most, taking things one step at a time, slowly but surely. right now, that i feel so lost, i don't know where to extract strength, i feel hopeless, a hard moment to re-construct myself, full of tears is speaking for the hurt what my mouth cant express. but i still look up on you, Lord God, coz You are the beautiful rainbow in every storms, you never fail to let me feel Your presence, i am not giving up because YOU ARE STILL MY ONE AND ONLY STRENGTH remain, MY HOPE, MY SUCCESS. i am strongly KEEPING MY FAITH, i wont give up until i see the brightest sunshine after all of these darkest path i've gone all along. i am holding on to the idea that I HAVE THE MOST BEAUTIFUL TOMORROW AFTER STORMS. i may lose some, but definitely will paid off by a better one. I HOLD ON TO YOU, i will NEVER GIVE UP ON YOU, i am still positive on what the upcoming days brings. thankyou Lord for never giving up on me, thankyou Lord God for never leaving, thankyou Lord God for everything, i want you to know, how happy i am to feel your undying love. I AM BETTER TOMORROW AS I HAVE YOU LORD GOD, I CLAIM IT IN YOUR NAME! coz tomorrow, im gonna wear the biggest smiles on earth I PROMISE :)


AMEN.

-maui

mY ♥cinDerelLa sTorY sCenE♥

MaryRose Sampan-Cañas

(Melodramatic♥Hopeless Romantic♥Fashion Stated♥Hello Kitty Addict♥Photonatic♥Happy Kid)

proudly yes, that's my full name. and i don't know how my mom and my dad derived it, but i have no choice but to accept it :p i was been in this world since 5th of June year 1989, and existing for 24 years now and born "Gemini". born and proud to be "PURE PINAY". i was dominantly known by the society as "Mau". but apparently "Marot" is my unique childhood name.

a BRATTY MEAN GIRL that makes me soo nice :); INBORN CLUMSY shows im not perfect, but really, its feels so perfect to be me; FRIENDLY and SOCIABLE that's why i am truly well-loved by many :); melodies that keeps me moving, i play drums, i love to dance, that's why MUSIC BECAME MY SOUL; SHOPAHOLIC and a FASHION LOVER, as expressing the girly lovely me! *wink*; HELLO KITTY ADDICT that makes me feel so relief ; PHOTOGRAPHY and MODELLING as a way of expressing my art and passion; SPORTS-ORIENTED for a balanced health and fit life and most of all EATING being my happiest activity of all (.^___^.)

to all, i am these kind SUPER WONDER WOMAN alive!; trustworthy, loyal, faithful, very true, reliable, easy to get along, bends all the flexes, versatile, a total package, HAPPIEST KID ALIVE

as life goes around, this is how i live my life, not required to be perfect, doing adventure being JUST BE YOU, FEEL FREE, EXPRESS YOUR OWN SELF by means of YOU! make the most out of it, live life at its fullest! making every single moment of your life as the HAPPIEST THING ON EARTH, as  given LIFE AS THE BEST GIFT sent from up above, everyone is truly A BLESSING ♥